Book Review: The Fault in Our Stars.

Before I start the huge rant that I am about to go into, I feel it is my duty to warn all my readers that there are major spoilers to the book and possibly the movie in this post. I haven't seen the movie yet because I wanted to read the book first-- but since it is an adaption, still be warned.


First off, I want to go ahead and say that this is not just another normal "this girl is dying of Cancer" book. Yes, she-- Hazel Grace-- is dying of Cancer and yes, as you might have guessed from passing the movie poster in the theater or the movie cover in the store, there is a boy involved. It is an adorable movie that many girls would love to see with their boyfriends and their boyfriends, if the movie is anything like the book, will probably be asked afterwards "What would you do if I was dying of Cancer" but believe me, it is not just a normal romance book of death and tears.. though those do come with it.

Hazel Grace is this amazingly strong person who doesn't believe she is strong. She wakes up each morning, fighting cancer of the lungs and more and pretty much just spends her life watching television with an over protective mother and an often gone because of work father. She was forced to go to some Support Group for Cancer kids and there she meets a boy named Augustus Waters who had his leg cut off due to cancer and was told he had about a 70 to 80% survival rate. He came because his friends Issac has Cancer in his eyes and wanted his friend to be there.

Anyway, there is an underlying part of this book that Gus and Hazel often talk about which is another book. A book that is beautiful and is also a Cancer book but it seems that the book doesnt end, or it does, but not properly so for the readers. This make Hazel angry and yearning for answers. Gus, being the amazingly perfect boyfriend that every teen girl will ever want in a man, spends his Wish (like the kids from the Make A Wish Foundation) getting him and her to Amsterdam so she could meet the author and ask him questions herself. (Sweet right!?)

Anyway, you think that this book is going to end with the girl dying, which you are ready for but here is the kicker.. this book talks up this amazing hearted boy who is in a high percentile rate for surviving.. and HE is the one to kick it. This pissed. me. off! I could see it coming in some small way but you really hope that it isn't true and the author isn't that big of an asshole. But he is.. not that he isn't a good writer. I mean he is just captivating in this story.. but you get angry too.

This book has its good points and its bad. I think it really leaves people with a fear of the oblivion with even more issues about the topic. Wondering if they will ever leave their mark on someone or something or ever be remembered. But for those who have someone, I think it will remind them that they are special, or at least to one person in their life.

Now, for the kicker. This books ending will SUCK and you will be left saying "Please tell me this book is missing the last twenty pages or something!" Yup, that's right.. just like the book mentioned in the story it Ends, but it doesn't really End. You have questions. Does she die? When? What about her mother? What about Issac? WHAT ABOUT SISYPHIS THE HAMSTER!? (A Joke you will get once you read the book.)

Now I know you might think, 'Well hey, why the hell read the book when she just told me all about it?" Because honestly, I haven't begun to explain in pure love and pure hatred, the detail of this book. Read it. Love it. Hate it. And keep it with you forever.

I explained this book on my Facebook and on a book review as the book that I do not know whether to hate with the deepest and darkest passion, or to love more then almost any other book I have ever read.

Read it for yourself and decide. Because there is no way I can begin to portray the beauty in this book with a simple review and my own feelings.

Read it my friends.

Read it.

A Stay At Home Single Mother-- Warning: RANT

I am tired of many things. I am tired of people thinking that being a Mom is not a job. I am tired of people thinking that being a Student isn't hard. Most of all, I am tired of people who only do one or the other, or work, thinking that doing all three is no big deal.. and then add a relationship to it

I just finished my first year of school out of, supposedly, three. I am getting my Bachelor's in Business Management with an Emphasis in Human Resources and a minor in Writing. I am going to Globe University which is an online college based out of the MN, School of Business. I am also a stay at home mother, who is single right now though my daughter and I still live in the same home as her father, whom the 7 year relationship between us ended in August.

First off, being a full time student is hard, even online. I have to be a full time student for my FAFSA to pay off my schooling, or at least most of it. Then, there is being a mother. Something very important to me. Right now my daughter is turning five in January and then will start school next November if I got everything correct. Until then, she is at home with me doing her pre-k stuff here at home.

Being single can be lonely. Especially when you watch your ex, who you are still friends with and care about (in a loving way but not a relationship way) start his second relationship since you have been broken up. And this time, really be happy. I am even friends with the girl, and she is great.  But yes, I can get lonely. Now, my original plan was to stay single and jobless unless I finished school in 2017. The school helps you find a good paying job based off of your degree and everything. Not to mention, I figured being in school full time would take away from me being in a relationship and giving that my full attention.. so single I stay.

Then I decided that maybe I will at least get a part time job when Abbi starts school. That way I can do it during the day while she is at school and get to be with her here at night, do our homework together, play with each other and I can put her to bed.

My ex though, was talking to me the other day because although I have reasons for staying single, I do tend to complain that I hate not having anybody. Anyway, he said to find someone while I am in school because it is perfect time to find someone who wont mind me doing something important to me. So I said "oh yeah, that is a turn on. Hi there, not only do I have a five year old child but I am also a student full time, if you want to do anything you will have to pay." So that started up his argument about getting a job. I don't think that actually helps the relationship thing any. He might go to work and have a relationship and find time to spend with his daughter, but he isnt a student. Can you imagine? Going to school full time and needing to set time aside for work, going to work even part time especially right now when my daughter is home all day, then finding time to actually spend with her and then trying to fit in a relationship too? It just doesnt work.

I am tired of having the argument that I can be a mom, be in a relationship, go to school, and go to work all at the same time. Some people can do it and damn bravo to them. But right now, it does not suit me. I can not do it because I tend to focus on one thing more then the other and juggling two things right now is a hell of a lot better then juggling three or four. I am trying to better myself..why can no one understand that? I guess it just makes me lazy or stupid. That is what I have heard before.

I will figure it out.

This is just a rant.